I too, have been thinking of the meaning of resistance.

Why is my urgent need to be more than I am?

Because it is entirely unfitting for me to be reined without opposition by an irresponsibility in complete disregard of this [pulling need]. There are no shadows of doubt cast upon my reason to be ashamed of this recklessness. Beneath a thin veil are hidden crimes which infinitely outdistance all human measurements.

So what then, of my future?

Because it is impossible for me to fully comprehend the pending consequences of each action/inaction. Am I too far corrupted and spiritually numbed, blindly trusting in a natural order of life; if I surrender what is my most eminent principle, what sets me above all Creation: my free will; if I abandon that will to take decisive action to turn from this inane path and towards the one, only rational decision: complete surrender to [that urgent need]; am I so devoid of individuality, have I already become too much a part of the 'spiritless and cowardly mass'?

I deserve death.

But not a tragic one. For the spineless and will-less who have had the marrow sucked from their bones, who have been robbed the Center of their stability - are not tragic; no, by their nature, they are bound for destruction.

So it seems, but it is not to be.

I have been victim of a gradual, treacherous, systematic abuse. A system which puts everyman into a spiritual prison. Only now, finding myself in fetters, I have become aware of my fate. Only a few others have recognized the threat of our evident ruin. I will hopefully have more to say about the fate of those others. If everyone waits until the otherman makes a start, [that fate] will come steadily closer, until even the last victim will be cast into the maw of that insatiable [fate]. Therefore, in my conscious observance, I must defend myself as best as I can at this late hour, I must work diligently against the scourges of mankind.

I will offer resistance, before all I am is reduced to rubble.

Do not forget that every people deserves the regime it is willing to endure.

"Resistance does not start with big words.
but with small deeds (...)
asking yourself a question
and then asking that question to others
that is how resistance starts."
- Remco Campert

So here is my question to me and you:

Do you feel the need to be more than you are?